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Friday, October 08, 2004
haix.. haix.. im lyk feeling so stressed and frustrated now i wanna scream.. i keep wondering why and why and why.. why doesn he lyk believe dat i study and keep doubting me?? why must he see from my results if i studied?? it's not my fault dat's e paper's hard and i carn do it.. dat doesn mean dat i din study.. i tried my best alreadi.. i tried my very best to finish studying e whole bk and it's e first time i actualli finished e whole bk on tym.. i studied!!! and yet u tink i din.. it's not my fault i carn do e qtns.. is it? why? why? why? why do i haf such an unreasonable father?? one dat doesn trust me and haf such high expectations of me?? and now.. he doesn allow me to go to church on sun.. because i haf a paper on mon.. and he doesn trust dat i will finish studying for it.. why?? he keeps telling me.. dat God wun help me if i dun help myself.. obviously i noe dat.. but who says i din help myself? who says i din study? not lyk he noes everything.... he doesn trust me at all.. he doesn believe me when i say i study.. i realli wanna scream out.. im sad.. im feeling very stressed.. how i wish he din exist at all.. i noe i shudn be wishing for dat.. but i carn help it.. why isn he lyk my mum who doesn give me so much stress?? haix.. im crying.. i keep crying whenever i tink of how he doesn trust me at all.. dat means i've been crying a lot.. well.. no one noes bout it.. other den my sibs.. i carn believe dat he doesn trust me.. why is it dat to him dere's oni study study and study in life?? there's more other things to life den study.. but it isn so to him.. why? i was wondering why and is still wondering why now.. oni God can ans me.. and make me feel better.. yes.. anw.. sry if i sounded real bad on e previous entry.. was feeling kinda.. i dunno lahx.. haix.. but it was oni written in a moment of anger.. heex.. |